CN: Binge eating
Anxiety spikes those prickly pinprick holes.
I am deflated, an old birthday party balloon,
a sad sagging castle, no bounce.
Oh to be full
of life! Preferably,
but sometimes
microwave rice uncooked don’t have time
for breathe between gulping bread like a sacrilege
cold pizza crust from the bin wheat thins I want to be thin please
not dad’s birthday chocolates quorn ham I’m vegetarian
real ham I’m nothing left over chicken slices tomorrows
lunch and dinner and the next days
too and I am too much now but still
empty
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Blueprint 