By Micha Frazer-Carroll CN: Depression, anxiety, exercise, alcohol, hallucinations, doctors “But is there a difference, when we discuss ‘mental illness’, and when we talk about ‘mental health problems’?” I stared at my supervisor blankly. There… More
The show is simplistic, glamorising, and dangerous.
By Mollie Georgiou Cambridge CN: Anxiety, weight, GPs “But you’ve got such a bright future ahead of you”. The words hung in the air as I stared blankly back at my GP, my stomach… More
By Gabriella Philips CN: Exercise I’ve been running for as long as I’ve struggled with mental health; not to reach a particular target (other than getting fighting fit) but to find space and relative… More
By Caitlin Stark Cambridge CN: Depression, meds Good conversations mentioning mental illness: ‘so I was at the psychologist today and she had the cutest dog with her’ ‘have you seen this depression memes page… More
Cambridge columnist Oscar Ridout brings us the second instalment of a weekly diary series they call Taking Time. This week they think about their experiences with intermission. Cambridge CN: Mention of being sick, doctors, exams … More
By Emma Simkin CN: Hospitals, bipolar, Trump presidency I’m running up and down the waiting room in my pyjamas, stolen Christmas baubles swinging from my hair. ‘Look everybody, it’s Emma the Unstoppable Genius, just… More
By Haleema Mirza National Film and Television School CN: Psychiatric wards, BPD I recently quit my job after a series of unpleasant incidents. One of which I ashamedly was trying my hardest to overlook;… More
Blueprint Team CN: Loneliness, depression, exercise, anxiety The company of others can be a beautiful thing. But equally, alone time is important. Being alone allows us to be introspective, to feel independent, and competent. Sometimes… More
Anon Cambridge CN: Depression, anxiety Social media undoubtedly taps into some very positive aspects of human sociality; we use it to find validation, to share interesting or amusing things, for grass-roots political action and… More
On recovery from emotional abuse. Anon CN: Emotional abuse, relationships, depression, anxiety, self-harm I have struggled for weeks to write this. Many reasons, questions and feelings flooded through my head every time I sat down… More
By Beth Walters CN: Periods, sexism, PMDD, images showing blood and periods ‘Urgh, hormones’. ‘I’m sorry, I must just be hormonal’, ‘I’m such a moody b*tch right now’. These are the familiar conversational watermarks… More
Is it strange that being alone in bed is such a relief? Weight lifted when empty sheets wait. The clock just mine to watch and set The light just mine to kill. I want to… More
CN: Death I Tried to light candles with fractured matches, Watching straining lick of flame reach, Like our broken fingertips, Across the bruised void of the unsaid Suddenly Impenetrable broken curls of Cyrillic… More
CN: Ableist slur My madness can not be cured My late nights screaming disillusioned My unfaithful lover; existence My sorry desires to extinguish this My madness can not be cured My need to… More
By Emrys Travis CN: Disability, chronic fatigue chronic pain, autoimmune diseases I should preface this piece by stating in no uncertain terms that, as a Brit, I am neither patriotic, nor under any illusions… More
By Georgia Elander CN: Mental health slurs, sexism Women have always been made mad by men. We have had madness constructed onto us, built into us, drawn out of us, in many different settings… More
By Rose Payne CN: Sexual assault, rape In a world that has a website where you can find out if a dog dies in a film (doesthedogdie.com – a brilliant website), I’ve always wondered,… More
Blueprint team CN: Dissertations, motivation It’s dissertation season, which can be a high pressure time for many students. As deadlines draw closer, it’s easy to feel as if you’re behind, or the only one struggling,… More
By Isla Anderson CN: Trauma, PTSD, abuse, rape, blood, gender dysphoria, dissociation JACK: [Screaming] I want a different story. JOY: No. This is the story that you get. —from ‘Room’ (2015), Dir. Lenny Abrahamson,… More
You always point out the other World behind the clouds As if you have been there. When I sit in the library Moaning to dead poets And trying to remember Not to forget next time… More
By Gabrielle Zemsky CN: Mothers, feeling low Somewhere in our house, there’s an old picture of me and my mom. In it we’re lying on the floor, wearing matching outfits which turn our bodies… More
The way medical professionals treat people can vary hugely between diagnoses, even when symptoms are the same. How does this affect patients when the label they’re given is wrong? By Emma Simkin CN: Psychiatric hospitals,… More
I am a river. Strong, raging, tumbling, joyful Carving deep into slabs of hard, hard rock Through lush oases and built up towns and empty space, I pick up stones and carry them For long… More
Images by Hannah Watson, poetry by Sandra Watson
A comic about struggling to function.
My smile meant nothing. It was practiced to preserve An impression of Deserved ambition; Just desserts; my achievements. Is it worse if I Felt nothing or I Felt so much that my own fumes Cut… More
By Sienna Hewavidana CN: Racism, prejudice Accents are invisible. Or at least – I believed they were. Growing up in my household, I had become deaf to my parent’s strong Srilankan accents. I believed they… More
Because I know that I’m wrong. But I can’t be. Because the beat in my chest says I can’t rest until I can sustain myself until I’m nothingness. And you hold out the honey and… More
Anon CN: Impostor syndrome I was asked at the beginning of the graduate scheme to fill out a portfolio of projects I’ve worked on, to mark the milestones I’m supposed to achieve by the… More
By Georgia Elander Images by Becky Guthrie CN: Feeling low, relationships, food The way the sun without warning lights up all the buildings in sight isn’t something you see so much as something you feel.… More
It moods adolescence. Full as a first period. Far from tits and the mature comfort of a hairy muff. Pretends to have not played cool tunes with the bits. Forgets ever having enjoyed the weight… More
By Mariam Ansar CN: Anxiety, panic attacks My room has always been my place of escape. Three summers ago, I inscribed my favourite quotations onto pieces of paper and framed them to preserve the wisdom… More
By Izzy Ryan CN: Eating disorders, doctors; mention of throwing up, cancer Thinking of mental health as a black and white issue leaves those in the grey are feeling isolated and unable to reach… More
By Beth Walters CN: Self-care, feeling low, food So you’re having one of those days. Maybe you missed your alarm then rushed to lectures, then a lorry splashed you with mud, only for you to… More
CN: Consent, rape, being in the closet ‘I like your accent’, he says, and reaches for my fly. I freeze. The microwave at home should have caught fire by now. Or maybe it won’t… More
Anon CN: Suicidal ideation, self-harm, hospitalisation, death you’re either about to do something reckless, or about to do nothing. iPhone screen cracked lights text green ‘u okay?’ No, you tap out with fingernails scooped… More
Columnist Oscar Ridout brings us the first instalment of a new weekly diary series. This week they tell us about their early experiences with mental health in Cambridge. Cambridge CN: Depression, alcohol use, rape, eating struggles… More
CN: Suicidal ideation I’m standing on the edge of a lake the trees surround me, the campus building is behind me and there’s no one out here – not even me, for I have allowed… More
By James Downs CN: Eating disorders, anorexia, doctors, psychosis This week is Eating Disorders Awareness Week – an annual event which sees charities and campaigners like myself come together in a week of activities aimed… More
CN: Binge eating Anxiety spikes those prickly pinprick holes. I am deflated, an old birthday party balloon, a sad sagging castle, no bounce. Oh to be full of life! Preferably, but sometimes microwave rice uncooked… More
what’s up? I tell him about the time that I stared at the sky so much it turned away from me. I recall blades of grass stretching into a railway of escape. I show him… More
By Emma Simkin CN: Dissociation, trauma Reading about dissociation can potentially worsen, exacerbate, or introduce symptoms for those who suffer from it. Read mindfully. The first time I dissociated was in my first term of first… More
By Emily Bailey-Page – Arts Editor CN: Self-care, sleep problems, perfectionism, anxiety When dealing with your mental health, structure and routine can be intensely useful. Getting up at the same time every day, having… More
By Sofia Bodo CN: Antidepressants, depression, anxiety I had done it all: self-care, counselling, CBT. Friends had rallied around and then disappeared as the year turned; I had developed coping strategies which promptly failed;… More
By Georgia Elander CN: Politics, self-care, Trump presidency, queerness, anxiety The concept of ‘self-care’ is everywhere now in feminist, queer and other activist circles. It comes from Audre Lorde’s incredible statement that ‘caring for… More
Shadow-box the light with your curtains drawn midday, You choose to lay – lost By Kieron Rennie Header image by vivianejl Read more of Kieron’s poetry here
A comic about accepting your emotions.
By Beth Walters CN: Disability, hearing loss, anxiety, depression, counselling “But do you not think, perhaps, that the types of care and support you had as a child, necessary because of your hearing loss,… More
By Emma Simkin CN: Depression, anxiety, dissociation, eating disorders, psychosis, bipolar personality disorders, Trump presidency When I was seventeen and had a diagnosis of depression, I’d talk about my struggles with mental health and would… More
Sophie Buck CN: Anxiety I did each of these sketches in under 5 minutes, in the midst of feeling very anxious. It was 2am and I couldn’t sleep. The air was prickly and breathless. My… More
CN: Sex, weight, mention of specific dress size, porn, relationships, age gaps Taking the blogosphere by storm with a no-bullshit attitude to sex, love and womanhood, Biba Kang has written about everything from role-play, to lube,… More
Filmmaker Naima Ramos-Chapman talks PTSD, being a survivor and the intersection between race and mental health.
A poem about feeling left behind.
By Saliha Shariff CN: Eating disorders Dear sister, Between the ages of sixteen and twenty, any time that I felt lost as to who I was, I restricted the amount that I ate. I’d never felt… More
By Micha Frazer-Carroll CN: Trump presidency, discrimination, exhaustion Happy February all! What a tempestuous month it has been, both personally and politically. Starting with the personal: the reception of our first month of publishing online… More
A poem about sedation, by Rosie Rosenberg
Am I of Interest? Am I? Am I sweet? Am I witty? Am I kind? Am I smart? Tell me loving things Universe For I love you And Loneliness is lonely Every particle insists Love… More
By Archie Fox CN: Queerness, depression, doctors, antidepressants As a teen, I was apparently not great with metaphors, given quite how much time I spent in the very literal closet. I was fifteen when I… More
after a while, you warm to the wreckage. stop plucking out gray hairs and find your feet. the urge to move south subsides. no sea is needed. no slate skies stretching out from stern to… More
Grooves for the new year.
A poem about academic spaces.
By Urvie Pereira CN: self-harm, suicide, exercise, addiction, food I am an adrenaline addict. I crave the thrill of that buzz you get right before a big race, or an important test. The release of fight-or-flight… More
Mental states in verse.
Arenike Adebajo CN: Eating disorders, bulimia, binge-eating, race ‘Treat Yourself’ or as I was first introduced to it in Season Four of Parks and Recreation, ‘Treat Yo Self’, is the idea that you should do… More
BY MIZ HASHIMOTO TW: depression, anxiety CN: therapy, mental health apps on phones Have you ever: Avoided a diagnosis of depression for four years because you couldn’t get a word out when you first went to… More
By Micha Frazer-Carroll – Editor In Chief CN: Mention of depression, suicide, self-harm I am so ready to talk. Like many others with experiences of mental ill health, I have been quiet about my struggles since the… More
Anorexia used to be my life.
Why narratives of dirt, cleanliness and morality surrounding food are harmful.