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Being on your period does not invalidate your emotions

By Beth Walters CN: Periods, sexism, PMDD, images showing blood and periods   ‘Urgh, hormones’. ‘I’m sorry, I must just be hormonal’, ‘I’m such a moody b*tch right now’. These are the familiar conversational watermarks… More

Sunday

Is it strange that being alone in bed is such a relief? Weight lifted when empty sheets wait. The clock just mine to watch and set The light just mine to kill. I want to… More

It would have been your birthday

CN: Death   I Tried to light candles with fractured matches, Watching straining lick of flame reach, Like our broken fingertips, Across the bruised void of the unsaid   Suddenly Impenetrable broken curls of Cyrillic… More

A Reclamation

CN: Ableist slur   My madness can not be cured My late nights screaming disillusioned My unfaithful lover; existence My sorry desires to extinguish this   My madness can not be cured My need to… More

Disability in Italy

By Emrys Travis CN: Disability, chronic fatigue chronic pain, autoimmune diseases   I should preface this piece by stating in no uncertain terms that, as a Brit, I am neither patriotic, nor under any illusions… More

It’s not me, it’s you

By Georgia Elander CN: Mental health slurs, sexism   Women have always been made mad by men. We have had madness constructed onto us, built into us, drawn out of us, in many different settings… More

Introducing: Unconsenting media

By Rose Payne CN: Sexual assault, rape   In a world that has a website where you can find out if a dog dies in a film (doesthedogdie.com – a brilliant website), I’ve always wondered,… More

Blueprint’s guide to dissertations

Blueprint team CN: Dissertations, motivation   It’s dissertation season, which can be a high pressure time for many students. As deadlines draw closer, it’s easy to feel as if you’re behind, or the only one struggling,… More

Dissecting narratives: The poetics of trauma

By Isla Anderson CN: Trauma, PTSD, abuse, rape, blood, gender dysphoria, dissociation   JACK: [Screaming] I want a different story. JOY: No. This is the story that you get. —from ‘Room’ (2015), Dir. Lenny Abrahamson,… More

Window

You always point out the other World behind the clouds As if you have been there. When I sit in the library Moaning to dead poets And trying to remember Not to forget next time… More

Me, my mother, and I

By Gabrielle Zemsky CN: Mothers, feeling low   Somewhere in our house, there’s an old picture of me and my mom. In it we’re lying on the floor, wearing matching outfits which turn our bodies… More

What’s in a name?

 The way medical professionals treat people can vary hugely between diagnoses, even when symptoms are the same. How does this affect patients when the label they’re given is wrong? By Emma Simkin CN: Psychiatric hospitals,… More

River.

I am a river. Strong, raging, tumbling, joyful Carving deep into slabs of hard, hard rock Through lush oases and built up towns and empty space, I pick up stones and carry them For long… More

Looking from the shore

Images by Hannah Watson, poetry by Sandra Watson

The light at the end of the tunnel

A comic about struggling to function.

Stretched lips

My smile meant nothing. It was practiced to preserve An impression of Deserved ambition; Just desserts; my achievements. Is it worse if I Felt nothing or I Felt so much that my own fumes Cut… More

Dear Mum: I’m sorry I used to be embarrassed by your accent

By Sienna Hewavidana CN: Racism, prejudice Accents are invisible. Or at least – I believed they were. Growing up in my household, I had become deaf to my parent’s strong Srilankan accents. I believed they… More

Secret.

Because I know that I’m wrong. But I can’t be. Because the beat in my chest says I can’t rest until I can sustain myself until I’m nothingness. And you hold out the honey and… More

Am I the worst employee in the office?

Anon CN: Impostor syndrome   I was asked at the beginning of the graduate scheme to fill out a portfolio of projects I’ve worked on, to mark the milestones I’m supposed to achieve by the… More

Coming out of hibernation

By Georgia Elander Images by Becky Guthrie CN: Feeling low, relationships, food   The way the sun without warning lights up all the buildings in sight isn’t something you see so much as something you feel.… More

Adolescence

It moods adolescence. Full as a first period. Far from tits and the mature comfort of a hairy muff.  Pretends to have not played cool tunes with the bits. Forgets ever having enjoyed the weight… More

For times when getting out of bed feels like too much

By Mariam Ansar CN: Anxiety, panic attacks   My room has always been my place of escape. Three summers ago, I inscribed my favourite quotations onto pieces of paper and framed them to preserve the wisdom… More

‘I don’t have an eating disorder’: On being in the grey area

By Izzy Ryan CN: Eating disorders, doctors; mention of throwing up, cancer   Thinking of mental health as a black and white issue leaves those in the grey are feeling isolated and unable to reach… More

5 self-care ideas for under a fiver

By Beth Walters CN: Self-care, feeling low, food So you’re having one of those days. Maybe you missed your alarm then rushed to lectures, then a lorry splashed you with mud, only for you to… More

Some fates worse than death

CN: Consent, rape, being in the closet   ‘I like your accent’, he says, and reaches for my fly. I freeze. The microwave at home should have caught fire by now. Or maybe it won’t… More

crisis time

Anon CN: Suicidal ideation, self-harm, hospitalisation, death   you’re either about to do something reckless, or about to do nothing. iPhone screen cracked lights text green ‘u okay?’ No, you tap out with fingernails scooped… More

it doesn’t feel real

CN: Suicidal ideation I’m standing on the edge of a lake the trees surround me, the campus building is behind me and there’s no one out here – not even me, for I have allowed… More

I became an expert on my eating disorder, because no one else was going to

By James Downs CN: Eating disorders, anorexia, doctors, psychosis This week is Eating Disorders Awareness Week – an annual event which sees charities and campaigners like myself come together in a week of activities aimed… More

when I eat my emptiness

CN: Binge eating Anxiety spikes those prickly pinprick holes. I am deflated, an old birthday party balloon, a sad sagging castle, no bounce. Oh to be full of life! Preferably, but sometimes microwave rice uncooked… More

my reputation as the one who always smiles

what’s up? I tell him about the time that I stared at the sky so much it turned away from me. I recall blades of grass stretching into a railway of escape. I show him… More

“I thought I’d gone mad”: Your guide to dissociation

By Emma Simkin CN: Dissociation, trauma Reading about dissociation can potentially worsen, exacerbate, or introduce symptoms for those who suffer from it. Read mindfully.  The first time I dissociated was in my first term of first… More

Structure: A guide for perfectionists

By Emily Bailey-Page – Arts Editor CN:  Self-care, sleep problems, perfectionism, anxiety   When dealing with your mental health, structure and routine can be intensely useful. Getting up at the same time every day, having… More

Antidepressants made me feel like myself again

By Sofia Bodo CN: Antidepressants, depression, anxiety   I had done it all: self-care, counselling, CBT. Friends had rallied around and then disappeared as the year turned; I had developed coping strategies which promptly failed;… More

How do you do self-care as an activist?

By Georgia Elander CN: Politics, self-care, Trump presidency, queerness, anxiety   The concept of ‘self-care’ is everywhere now in feminist, queer and other activist circles. It comes from Audre Lorde’s incredible statement that ‘caring for… More

Dormant

Shadow-box the light with your curtains drawn midday, You choose to lay – lost   By Kieron Rennie Header image by vivianejl Read more of Kieron’s poetry here

How I learned to listen to myself

A comic about accepting your emotions.

“No more cuddles”: Disability, anxiety, and asking for ‘too much’

By Beth Walters CN: Disability, hearing loss, anxiety, depression, counselling   “But do you not think, perhaps, that the types of care and support you had as a child, necessary because of your hearing loss,… More

Mental illness exists beyond depression and anxiety. Why don’t we talk about it?

By Emma Simkin CN: Depression, anxiety, dissociation, eating disorders, psychosis, bipolar personality disorders, Trump presidency When I was seventeen and had a diagnosis of depression, I’d talk about my struggles with mental health and would… More

‘I’m going to throw up’: How I draw my anxiety

Sophie Buck CN: Anxiety I did each of these sketches in under 5 minutes, in the midst of feeling very anxious. It was 2am and I couldn’t sleep. The air was prickly and breathless. My… More

‘Stop practising Skype sex on your laptop webcam’: Biba Kang | Advice to my teenage self

CN: Sex, weight, mention of specific dress size, porn, relationships, age gaps   Taking the blogosphere by storm with a no-bullshit attitude to sex, love and womanhood, Biba Kang has written about everything from role-play, to lube,… More

Naima Ramos-Chapman: mental illness affects black women too

Filmmaker Naima Ramos-Chapman talks PTSD, being a survivor and the intersection between race and mental health.

Graduation

A poem about feeling left behind.

A letter to my little sister, whose friends have started skipping meals

By Saliha Shariff CN: Eating disorders Dear sister, Between the ages of sixteen and twenty, any time that I felt lost as to who I was, I restricted the amount that I ate. I’d never felt… More

Editor’s letter: February 2017

By Micha Frazer-Carroll CN: Trump presidency, discrimination, exhaustion Happy February all! What a tempestuous month it has been, both personally and politically. Starting with the personal: the reception of our first month of publishing online… More

Not Again

A poem about sedation, by Rosie Rosenberg

Evaluation

 Am I of Interest? Am I? Am I sweet? Am I witty? Am I kind? Am I smart? Tell me loving things Universe For I love you And Loneliness is lonely Every particle insists Love… More

Why talking about queerness is good for our mental health

By Archie Fox CN: Queerness, depression, doctors,  antidepressants As a teen, I was apparently not great with metaphors, given quite how much time I spent in the very literal closet. I was fifteen when I… More

brighton-cambridge, late at night

after a while, you warm to the wreckage. stop plucking out gray hairs and find your feet. the urge to move south subsides. no sea is needed. no slate skies stretching out from stern to… More

Playlist: This calls for celebration

Grooves for the new year.

oxford lye

A poem about academic spaces.

Exercise, self-care, self-harm, and me

By Urvie Pereira CN: self-harm, suicide, exercise, addiction, food I am an adrenaline addict. I crave the thrill of that buzz you get right before a big race,  or an important test.  The release of fight-or-flight… More

Excerpts From the Honesty Book

Mental states in verse.

When ‘treat yoself’ becomes Evil Kermit: Self-care vs. self-harm

Arenike Adebajo CN: Eating disorders, bulimia, binge-eating, race ‘Treat Yourself’ or as I was first introduced to it in Season Four of Parks and Recreation, ‘Treat Yo Self’, is the idea that you should do… More

Mental health apps: could they help you?

BY MIZ HASHIMOTO TW: depression, anxiety CN: therapy, mental health apps on phones Have you ever: Avoided a diagnosis of depression for four years because you couldn’t get a word out when you first went to… More

Mental health dialogue is changing in 2017

By Micha Frazer-Carroll – Editor In Chief CN: Mention of depression, suicide, self-harm   I am so ready to talk. Like many others with experiences of mental ill health, I have been quiet about my struggles since the… More

Mental health is part of us, not all of us

Anorexia used to be my life.

Food is not a moral issue

Why narratives of dirt, cleanliness and morality surrounding food are harmful.